I always grown up believing that everything will be o.k. as long as I force that feeling, I know I can handle everything. And at that time I decided to become a strong will human. If not I’ll fail and lost. But just like other greenies that still couldn’t open his eyes fully, I got strong punch in my heart. That exactly, deep inside my heart I was fragile, easy to break and then I realize it as the core of every human core, as long as they have heart they are fragile but at the same time also the strongest creature ever live on earth.

Our ego usually brings us as far as neglected those who are precious and close with us. Our greediness makes us always pursued something far away, desires to reach it no matter what and forget our surrounding. Pursued our dream, nothing wrong with that, but still human cannot live alone in this world, it is indeed human can be so strong and have no opponent as long as he or she protect something precious for them. Those people just group of people who don’t want to lose their precious, since they realize it values for them. Ego, indeed, it is because by saving that precious thing or precious person they also protect themselves from falling apart. Yet they perhaps know its value because once they had lost it.

I had lost someone special when I was still a teenager. She always angry at me since I was a naughty child, she is strong will old woman and harsh since her life was a harsh one too. She hard to show her soft side but I know, deep down in my heart that she love me and had always make me her number one grandchild. She just can’t express it fully. And then sickness took her away from me. My greatest regret was that I can’t spend more and more time with her when she was sick, I thought everything is going to be alright and she will come home and scolded me like before also give her bunch of advices, but she gone to the place I can’t reach. At that time my tears never stop to flow, I just tried hard to make myself remembered who was I, the strong will girl who rare to let her tears flow especially in public, but there, at that time I hide myself form everyone sight and my tears keep flowing for hours. There an idiot who finally realize something was gone, was lost from her life and never will back and at that time also that idiot finally realize how much did she loves her grandmother. Promise that she would never make the same mistake and having that regret anymore.

Strong means that you can protect something. It is the greatest thing that you can do in this world, and when there is a greatest will which makes you cannot bear to hide it from separation make sure that the time you spent enough to make lot of memories to be remained in your heart so there will be no regret when you let it free. Common sense but contain absolute truth, “where there is meeting there will be a time of separation.” Now how you welcoming it because you had valued every little thing you spent with those precious to you and have no regret. Because regret always comes in the end, it was where you realize it you had lost it.